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The Cease... 2002-06-13 - 8:13 p.m. [Music: Carbon - VNV Nation] I remember once, there was a time when I would always take pictures of people...of those around me. It started in sixth grade with a slew of pictures for each small event...all containing people I knew...people I can look at now and name because I've known them forever. Very slowly..the pictures began to stop...The people stopped showing up. I find now I do not want to take pictures of these people with thier fickle minds and hearts. I long for the comfort of the lonely street sign and criss crossed plane....the treetops and abandoned shoes...parked cars and stray cats...lost toys and empty schoolfronts... Slowly...I've stopped wanting to be with people. I realized this today. people are too much trouble...I am not fit for that sort of thing...My mouth tends to be too stupid for it. I much prefer the company of my camera and those things around me. I am practically alone anyway...what does it matter if I make it literal? I don't want to create new friendships...I've stopped caring....my heart aches too much. I should only like to crawl inside these twisted photographs and live there forever. When a smile was a smile...when I knew everyone...Back then things were simple and i find each day gets harder now. I can't handle the people...I don't want to. I would rather not deal with them. Step one..removal. Social contact is bad...I'm quite sick of it. It's time I concentrated on more important things. I have stopped listening. It is time now to see. I am going to go out and see what I might see. I am too tired to do anything more. Take it as you will...~shrugs~ I have honestly stopped caring. ~Angel in Runes~