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People Sometimes... 2002-09-22 - 6:32 p.m. [Music: Apoptygama Berzerk - Love Never Dies(part one)] Nnn. I will not give in to stupidity. Stupidity thy name is mother. ~rolls eyes~ The very *second* I told mommy dearest I'd spoken to Chance she jumped down my throat about how he never ever made an effort for me and I'm stupid for crawling back. (And you wondered where I got it from, didn't you Chrys? ~sighs~) Just..how annoying. It's becoming painfully obvious I *am* becoming more adult because there is more and more dissent between the two of us. Which, of course don't you know, is my fault. I'm a cynical un american strain on her precious time and money. ...Yet...let's see..who's name is that on all the loans for college? Who offered to pay rent? Who tries without cease to please her? Hmmm...certainly not the cynical bitch you see before you...never! ~rolls eyes again~ And see...this is what got me in trouble the first time...i let her bitching and whining get to me. But not this time. Let her think what she wants. I'm 18 now and I don't have to listen to her. She won't give me money to get there...won't drive me either? Ha fucking ha. If I had to I'd get a second job...beside the fact I hardly call one admittedly pleasant conversation enough to assume so much of. I'm just going to play it out. ~shrugs a little~ But not let it get to me so much. I'm capable of making my own decisions and my own choices. Meh. Among other things, I'm kicking around the idea of updating the layout...more Lys!art of course...but still. Not overly sure about it...speaking of art I need to draw more...and more and more and more. I have a lot to do not only for myself/friends but I have a literal ton of stuff to do for mommy dearest to keep her appeased. ~sighs~ There's the business of my looks...a lot of that needs fixing, from my hair to my teeth to my horrid skin....then there's e-mails and keeping in touch with people in which i majorly slack off on...and then there's normal everyday people interaction...and on top of that lot I'm forced to take on a load of housework because she's become a bloody socialite. And she never shuts up about it. The kids did this today and we went here and I'm going out there....I'm sick of it quite honestly. I wish she'd shut up and let me alone...mostly because it hurts my littyle head because one second her friend next second on her child, or as I like to see it, dog on a god damn leash. The guilt trips are getting old. ...This entry was excessively rant-y. I apologize...just had to be said....Off to update Deviant now so I can write e-mails. Theeeen...i have to do the dishes, sweep, dust, vaccum, and do the laundry plus make Melski a gift, draw, read and whatever the hell else I can fit in before I pass out. Nn...people sometimes. ~Angel in Runes~