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Evolution of Self... 2002-06-29 - 1:31 a.m. [Music: Eye - Smashing Pumpkins] I *had* the working of a rather long entry here but...it got lost because Largo linked me somewhere..so...meh. No big deal, yeah? It was mostly bitchy-ness and me talking about recent events. But i realised, thanks to the site Largo directed me to, it's not bloody worth it. If people want to be stupid and un forgiving, let them. It's not my problem. As for me..the best payback is a happy and furfilled life, right? So there we go. In other news, I've been reading a lot lately...it's nice. I went on a total book binge the other day and came home with a pile of books for under 75 dollars. Very nice stuff too. I was able to get a book on drawing and such for fairly cheap and it looks good..I haven't had time to put it to the test yet. I also got a book on northern magic and one on mediums...both are fairly interesting so far and I'm only a few pages in. i think they'll be useful in the future and they make for good reading anyway. I also picked up a book on feminism and empowering women...it looks really good but I haven't had time to peek at it's insides just yet. On the fictional reading list I finally got ahold of my life at rose red and haven't started it yet. I also was able to pick up an interesting book called angels in a harsh world. It's the spiritual type thing I usually dig. Lastly I got bad heir day..it's incredibly funny and I really like it. Sadly i wasn't able to pick up a few of the more interesting books from the gay and lesbian section but when I have money I most likey will. The woman that checked out my things must have had a laugh...I had such varying tastes laid out...lucky for her I couldn't afford any of the graphic design stuff, gay and lesbian stuff, or computer stuff I wanted..hee...it's quite fun freaking people out that way. But yes..I'm happy with my selection. I got a lot for what I paid...at least I think so. It seems largo is back from germany..he had a good time and he's fallen in love..it's adorable even if it makes me the tiniest bit lonely. He's a sweet boy and I wish him my best of course. As I do the majority of my male friends. Tim jokingly offered to come over last night around midnight...then he changed his mind and told me he was sick...I wish he had come over...I could have used the company. Currently there are a few boys i would like to see because they are cute and make me feel good about myself...Henry, Dave, Kefka, and Tim. I love each of them one way or another...frankly though...I wish Henry'd move because I'd date him no questions asked...we're both pretty fucked up up top so I think we'd be perfect...Or Dave..I miss Dave...I haven't seen him in quite a while which sucks. And i spoke to Kefka the other day...he's still single and living with his biological parents..I'm happy for him mostly...but I miss the hell out of him. You really just don't forget six months of your life...well..at least not the feelings there. I sort of wish he'd never moved out of his house...maybe then we'd still have dated...but it is nice to know he thought those were the greatest 6 months of his love life too. It really was wonderful with Kefka. Funny how things work...How they change. How people change. It's a good thing I imagine. There's a BAAU meet today and I find myself hoping Dave will appear...I miss him quite a bit..more than I would like to voice. He's cute and funny...and comfortable to be around...~smiles~ He could sit in my living room for a bit while I do whatever and watch TV and talk to my family...he's...awesome that way. He's the perfect take home to ma kind of guy. But yes...BAAU meet. Hopefully I'll be able to get some drawing done which I haven't because I've either been reading/studying or typing away on the bloody computer.~chuckles~ It should be fun. And as for Tish...? I've no idea. I've tried a few times now to make my peace but that doesn't work...so.~shrugs~ I'm going to go and live my happy life and not dwell on it. it was fun...but fun can't last forever. Frankly, nothing ever really lasts forever. Heh..but I have a bad habit of not letting things die...shame shame shame on me.~chuckles~ Ah well..best to get it all out at once, no? It makes for a new age happy individual.~chortles~ Heh..yes... the world has habit of righting itself..one way or another...I'm more than happy to help. S'evolution of self...feels damn good too..and it was about bloody time. I may not be the sweetest or kindest person..but I'm a person at least and i'm working on it. heh...learning...yes learning to better myself. Oh how i amuse myself.~chuckles~ take care darlings. ~Angel in Runes~