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Sometimes... 2002-03-11 - 10:30 p.m. [Music: Smashing Pumpkins - Zero] I don't remember it ever being quite this difficult...my life is falling off the track...and I think I'm falling in love..this is bad my darlings...ever so bad. I know... I *know* I can't handle long distance right now! And...issues keep popping up... I hate myself sometimes. And I can't draw it away...my drawing is haywire...And the few people that make it better don't know, or aren't around or are causing other pleasant problems... i want to cry....but the tears won't come..no...they only come in my sleep...I have a fear my darlings...that something bad is going to happen...I'm hoping it's just my imagination...but...I don't... God dammit...I love you...all of you...but...you scare me so much...and I can't ever seem to figure out where the hell I fit inside this puzzle...I am no God, I am no devil, I am no angel...but still I see this..I see you...why? You never answer me...Why? And it's the thing I want to know most...What am I Dar? I think you have an idea...but there's never any time to tell me...is there? Dammit...I just don't want to be kept in the dark anymore...I love you, yeah...still...but I have no desire to posess you anymore...I just wish you'd talk to me. i wanna go home...And I wanna go to otakon and I want to meet Tony and the tears are falling now because i just don't understand anymore...I don't know myself...can't help myself...I'm lonely... I'm still looking for my someone...the sopmeone I feel right now...the someone that feels me right now...I wish I knew where he or she was... And I know who I want it to be... I hate myself sometimes. ~Angel in Runes~